The ultimate days of Aaron Hernandez’s life and his choice to admit about his gay relationships are detailed within the new e book Pointless Roughness.
The previous soccer star’s legal professional, Jose Baez, writes that he knowledgeable Hernandez within the last days of his double homicide trial that prosecutors have been planning to query his fiancee Shayana Jenkins about his affairs – one with a girl and one with one other man.
That’s when Hernandez burst into tears writes Baez, afraid of how Jenkins would react to the information of his secret relationship with a member of the identical intercourse who additionally occurred to be a mutual buddy of the couple.
‘However Jose, she’ll be devastated. I by no means meant to harm her. I do know I hold disappointing her. However she is my soul,’ Hernandez informed Baez.
‘She is all I’ve and can ever have.’
Baez then informed Jenkins, and writes that whereas she was blindsided and felt ‘betrayed,’ she remained by Hernandez’s aspect.
Hernandez’s sexuality didn’t stay personal for lengthy nevertheless, and days after he was acquitted within the trial he was outed on The Kirk & Callahan Present.
Two days later, Hernandez took his personal life.
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Breakdown: Aaron Hernandez burst into tears and stated he was afraid about how his fiancee would react to the information of his gay relationships writes Jose Baez (Hernandez and Baez in court docket in October 2015)
Sweetheart: I by no means meant to harm her. I do know I hold disappointing her. However she is my soul,’ Hernandez informed Baez (Hernandez and Jenkins above in an undated photograph)
Coming clear: Baez informed Jenkins the information later that day, saying that Hernandez’s affair with a girl and a mutual male buddy could be introduced up whereas she testified (couple above in undated pictures)
Baez writes that he’s unsure is Hernandez was homosexual or bisexual, however states that both method he finally appeared ‘hopeful’ after sharing his reality along with his lawyer.
The remainder of the day was a ‘blur’ writes Baez, who known as Jenkins to say that he wanted to talk along with her earlier than she arrived within the courtroom.
‘That is the s*** they do not educate in regulation college,’ writes Baez, who slipped out of court docket when he obtained phrase Jenkins was within the constructing and sat down to inform her the information.
‘Whereas the information in regards to the girl didn’t shake her, I may see the betrayal in her face after I talked about the person.’ writes Baez.
‘She knew him and had hung out with him and Aaron. She felt like a idiot.’
Baez doesn’t identify the person, writing that it’s not his place to out an individual and explaining that he solely agreed to share Hernandez’s confession with the blessing of Jenkins.
Ultimately, prosecutors by no means talked about Hernandez’s sexuality whereas Jenkins was on the stand or in the course of the case, and after some ‘soul looking out,’ Jenkins was again in court docket the day after studying in regards to the relationship between her fiance and their buddy.
‘That’s the reason she is going to at all times stroll on water so far as I’m involved,’ writes Baez.
She’s not good. Nobody is. Her compassion is an inspiration. Her love for him is one thing I’ll always remember.’
Hernandez was acquitted a number of days later, and some days after that was outed on Kirk & Callahan.
The soccer participant was known as a ‘tight finish on and off the sector’ and a ‘large receiver.’
The visitor that day, Michelle McPhee, later stated that she regretted the best way the hosts dealt with the information, however identified that in her thoughts Hernandez ought to have been ‘extra haunted by killing his buddy.’
Within the new e book, Jenkins additionally admits for the primary time that Hernandez was possible a homosexual man.
‘There was a lot hypothesis about Aaron’s sexuality since his loss of life. I can say this: Aaron was very a lot a person to me,’ writes Jenkins.
‘I noticed no indication that he was homosexual or gay. I want I had recognized how he felt, simply so we may have talked about it. I wouldn’t have disowned him. I’d have been supportive. I can’t fault him if he was feeling that method.’
Baez and Jenkins each claimed within the wake of Hernandez’s suicide that he requested them to inform his story within the suicide letters he wrote to them.
‘If you love somebody a lot you simply wish to be there to help them. The truth that he felt he couldn’t come out to me or he couldn’t inform me this stuff hurts, as a result of we had that bond,’ states Jenkins.
‘I’ve accepted that he could have been the best way he was stated to be, or that it will not be true. Regardless, I received’t know.’
Jenkins made headlines earlier this 12 months when she introduced that she was pregnant along with her second baby and gave beginning to a daughter in June along with her new beau, Dino Guilmette.
She has a daughter Avielle, 5, with Hernandez.
In her foreword, Jenkins additionally reveals that she was not allowed to see Hernandez on the hospital, and that he died alone consequently.
The brand new e book Pointless Roughness shall be launched on Tuesday
‘I raced to the hospital, however the medical doctors wouldn’t let me be with him. His loss of life was nonetheless below investigation, they stated. Somebody informed me he wasn’t even on the hospital, however that was a lie as a result of I noticed him being wheeled right into a room,’ writes Jenkins.
‘He had died alone. I didn’t need him to be alone any longer. I wished to see him whereas all of him was nonetheless intact. I wished to carry him.’
She continues: ‘As a substitute of being with my fiancé, I used to be informed I needed to wait. I didn’t see him till days later when he was already embalmed and ready for his funeral. It was past terrible.’
The e book additionally reveals that Hernandez defecated on himself whereas within the technique of taking his personal life.
DailyMail.com completely revealed simply days after Hernandez’s loss of life that the NFL star had written three suicide notes, one to Shayanna, one to their daughter and one to his alleged homosexual jail lover, Kyle Kennedy.
‘I believe I’m gonna cling it up. LOL,’ the previous Patriots star informed Kyle Kennedy.
Hernandez had additionally requested jail officers if Kennedy could possibly be his roommate previous to his loss of life.
He was nonetheless with Jenkins on the time, who he started courting in 2007 and propsed to after she turned pregnant.
Jenkins is presently suing the estates of three males the previous New England Patriots participant was charged with killing in an effort to make sure their daughter advantages from the sale of their house.
The households of Odin Lloyd, Daniel de Abreu and Safiro Furtado filed wrongful-death lawsuits in opposition to Hernandez’s property, and will they win these instances, cash from the mansion’s sale could possibly be used to pay damages.
Jenkins filed on behalf of her daughter, 5, and requested a trial to find out whether or not Hernandez’s declaration of homestead stays in impact.
The Massachusetts Homestead Act protects as much as $500,000 of a property’s fairness from collectors.
Hernandez was acquitted of killing Abreu and Furtado days earlier than his jail suicide. and his loss of life erased his 2015 conviction in Lloyd’s killing as a result of an obscure authorized doctrine within the state of Massachusetts.
Jenkins and her daughter are additionally suing the New England Patriots.
A lawsuit filed final 12 months on behalf of the 2 by Baez stated Hernandez had ‘probably the most extreme case of Power Traumatic Encephalopathy medically seen in an individual of his younger age of 28 years’ by Boston College researchers.
The lawsuit additionally named the NFL initially, however they have been then dropped as defendants within the case.
Hernandez had simply signed a seven-year, $40 million contract with the Patriots previous to the 2012 season, one of many largest contracts within the league on the time.
Previous to his time in New England he had quite a few run-ins with the regulation throughout his faculty soccer profession on the College of Florida.
Jenkins stood by Hernandez’s aspect all through his trial, and within the aftermath dismissed claims that he was homosexual, regardless of his jail lover talking out and exes confirming they knew about his predilection for members of his intercourse.
Household: Two days later, Hernandez hanged himself in his jail cell on the age of 27, abandoning Jenkins and his daughter Avielle, who was simply 4
Tot mother: Baez beforehand defended Casey Anthony again in 2011 following the loss of life of her daughter (pair above after Anthony’s launch from jail)
When requested about his jail lover on an episode of Dr. Phil, Jenkins stated: ‘I do not know who this Kyle Kennedy is. Aaron by no means talked about him.’
Jenkins additionally claimed that Kennedy lied about getting a love letter from Hernandez after his loss of life, with the soccer participant leaving three notes.
The state police report stated Hernandez wrote “John 3:16,” a reference to a Bible verse, in ink on his brow and in blood on a cell wall.
The verse says: ‘For God so cherished the world, that he gave his solely begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him shouldn’t perish, however have eternal life.’
A Bible was close by, open to John 3:16, with the verse marked by a drop of blood.
Some inmates have stated Hernandez had develop into more and more non secular throughout his time in jail, however Jenkins stated the bible verse did not sound like Hernandez and he’d by no means talked about it to her.
Hernandez wrote in her letter to Jenkins ‘you are wealthy,’ which led many to imagine there was cash hidden away for his widow.
Jenkins additionally stated shortly after Hernandez’s loss of life that she didn’t imagine he had dedicated suicide.
She informed Dr Phil that she thought the suicide letter was ‘a observe of affection’ primarily based on the best way Hernandez addressed her in his last letter.
‘I did see that it was addressed to Shay as a substitute of babe or bae, the best way he would refer me as – that was slightly odd to me. However so far as the content material, he gave the impression to be his loving self,’ she stated.
When Dr Phil requested her if the handwriting on the observe belonged to Hernandez, Shayanna stated: ‘(It) was comparable, however I really feel like, once more, you don’t have anything however time in there so I really feel prefer it’s simply duplicated or could possibly be.’